Monday, 30 August 2010

Tonight i'll stay home.

You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said "I miss you"?
But I need you to know that I care,
And I miss you.

If this is how it has to be, just promise you won't forget me.

Saturday, 28 August 2010

You said you loved me.

More than anyone else could ever know, but now you're leaving. Can't wait to strive to work this out, and I've never been one to brag. The nights get lonely and all I have left is a memory of you. I tried to say this but now there's nothing left for me to do and I've never been one to brag. Please don't go, just stay. I watched with tears in my eyes as you walked away. Miss your voice, and your touch, and if I told you I loved you could that be enough?

An awkward silence it's been too long since I've heard from you, and I lay sleepless knowing that my heart still belongs to you. And I've never been one to brag.

And if i told you i loved you, would that be enough?

Looking back, i don't regret one single day.
Ask anyone, when your name comes up in a conversation, my eyes sparkle and my smile shines.
I've never felt this way for anyone, and it frightens me.
You never leave my mind, even when i have better things to think about.
There's no place i'd rather be than right here with you.
Cause i love you with all that i am, and my voice shakes along with my hands.

Friday, 27 August 2010

I never thought i'd be saying this.

There is a point where you stop and say to yourself, enough is enough.

I'm tired of waiting, because i feel like i'm waiting for something that isn't even going to happen. And I don't have time to be worrying about that kinda drama when i could be worrying about more creative things, things that might actually get somewhere.

Today as i walked around town, I looked around me and i can honestly say all i saw was fake. Nothing is original anymore, it's very rarely you get an original person. I try to be as original as i can, but sometimes i even find myself slipping into the stupid routine of the un-original. I definatley think that it's better being your own person. Do you want to be remembered as a mindless zombie following the crowd, or someone who did their own thing and didn't give a shit what anyone else thought? I know which one i rather. People who hate on you for being different are fucking arseholes.

Be your own person.

Thursday, 26 August 2010

I've been staring at this for atleast 10 minutes, trying to figure out what to write about, but the truth is my mind is totally blank. I'm kinda starting to feel vunerable in a way i suppose.

Have you ever thought to yourself, whats the point?
Whats the point in doing what your about to do, whats the point in anything? There is always a point, but it's not always the right one.
I cant even begin to tell you how many people i've seen hurt over other peoples actions, yet the person who has actually said something/done something, doesn't realise the impact it's made on others.
It would be so great if everyone got along, but lets face it, you can't like everyone.
It's like when you meet that reaaaaally annoying person at the bus-stop, the one who wont stop telling you about their life stories. Although i do admire them for opening up to anyone they meet, because afterall, there is not a lot of people you can trust these days. I'd like to say i trust a lot of people, but truth of the matter, there is very few. Like when you think you know a person, but you really really dont. They lie and lie to you through their teeth until they can possibly lie no more. It's people like that you don't need in your life.

The only people you need in your life, are the ones who need you back. The ones who will love and cherish you for whoever you may be.

Tuesday, 24 August 2010

The point.

Sometimes you gotta give up before you look like a fool..

Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.

Sunday, 22 August 2010

This summer is coming to a close.

And i'm starting to figure out, that i cannot live without you. I hope you're thinking of me, cause all the starts above me sing your name, i'll never be the same again..

Absolutely everyone makes mistakes. They could be big ones, small ones, and even life changing ones. I've definately made my fair of share mistakes. The worst outcome of a mistake though, is losing someones trust. When there is no trust between two people, there isn't really much there. Trust makes the bond so much stronger, knowing you can count on that person, tell them anything, just makes the relationship that so much more special.

But once trust is broken, it will never come back no matter how much you want it to. I see so many relationships lose their trust, just because either of them want a bit of fun, or just don't think of the hurt and pain it will cause before they act.
I do really think i've found an amazing person. And i do really want it to work, unbelievable amounts. So i do hope it does. :-)

But you see, nothing ever goes to plan, does it?

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.

Saturday, 21 August 2010

A million kisses..

Woke up this morning in the most confused mood ever. Like I have said before, I don't care about what anyone thinks of me.. but thats a lie really isn't it? Because there is one person, and i really do care what he thinks of me. I always try to make myself look less of an idiot to him. It's like, you know when someone just makes you smile? Yeah, that.

And when your stars dont shine, i'll give you mine and lay a million kisses on you..
you dont need a dollar baby to steal this heart of mine, your heart is worth a million bucks and its beating next to mine, If you've got the time i'll make you mine and lay a million kisses on you..

But sometimes i do feel like i'm not good enough for him, because you just get that feeling when you know there are thousands of girls that are better than you. But that doesn't matter, because you should always embrace who you are. Never let anyone put you down, or tell you that you're not beautiful because everyone is beautiful. Being yourself is the key to finding the people that will be true to you, they will love you for who you are. So never pretend to be something you're not when the real person inside of you is so much better than the fake one.

..We are so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others that in the end we become disguised to ourselves.

Friday, 20 August 2010

never let me go

I think letting go of someone so dear to you is probably the hardest thing to do. Obviously a family member dying, there is nothing you can do is there? It frustrates me. When my nan died, i always blamed myself. Even though i know i couldn't have done anything to help her, i wanted to help her so much. But say, losing a bestfriend or boyfriend/girlfriend, there is all these quotes about how you can never get them back, and how you need to let go of what you love.

“Some of us think holding on makes us strong, but sometimes it is letting go.”

To me, that quote is bullshit. Only let go when you want to let go. Otherwise, fight with all you have, because if you really love and want that person, you won't let them go, you should fight for them. I don't care what anyone says, letting go is giving up. You should never give up on who you love, no matter how much they hurt you. Because when they're gone out of your life thats it, you'll never get to say what you needed to.
Never let go of that fiery sadness called desire.

Thursday, 19 August 2010

Big city dreams..

So basically i wanted to start a new blog, mostly because the other didn't start off with what or mostly, who, i wanted it to.

Ever since the events at the start of the holidays, my mind has been a complete mess. I want to do everything right, but how do you know whats right and wrong? Because sometimes when you know you're doing wrong, it feels so right.

''I guess that i can live without you but, without you i'll be miserable at best.''

People care way too much about what others think about them. I really couldn't care less about what people think about me, i've made mistakes, who hasn't? The only thing that matters is the people that matter to you know you're a decent person.

''Don't believe what your eyes are telling you. All they show is limitation. Look with your understanding, find out what you already know, and you'll see the way to fly.''